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I'm sinking again, and it's my own fault... I keep thinking of my past mistakes and it's ripping at my soul (if I have one anymore). Sometimes I think to myself.. "self... why bother??" What is the point anymore? It seems like nothing I do is right, and I want too much out of life. I feel for some reason that I am too good for this life I've fallen into. I should be doing what I want to do instead of what is expected of me. But then again, I lie in bed, alone in the darkness and dream about what I want to do with my life. Instead of getting up and doing something about it. Maybe I am asking too much out of life. Maybe I'm expecting too much, perhaps I should just stop dreaming and live with what has been set forth before me. Or will I have this constant nagging feeling that there is something more out there. That I should be doing more, being more... Guess the key word is MORE... But what is it? Because I certianly don't know what I want. I have this nagging feeling to just RUN.. again.. Someone give me a reason to stay in one place for more than a year.... *sighs*